As a mother of three small children I struggled to feel like I was enough. Am I giving my children enough love? Enough education? Enough opportunities? Enough sleep? Enough of me?

I read many parenting books, and got hooked on a few, only to feel like I wasn’t meeting up to the standards that were in front of me.

What made it harder was that I felt like I was the only one who was struggling. I felt like my old identity had disappeared and I couldn’t quite work out who I was anymore.

I wanted to find out why I felt the way I did and how I could feel better. I did lots of research, studied social work, sort assistance from a psychologist and studied courses with Dr Shefali Tsabary, Suzi Lula and Michael Bernard Beckwith.

Meditation and learning about self-care freed me from the cultural world of ‘doing’ and ‘perfect mother’ to connecting with my being and heart space. It didn’t mean I didn’t have challenges or challenging parenting moments but when I meditate I can see more clearly what is happening for myself and my children. I take responsibility for my own needs and allow my children to express theirs.

A Motherhood Evolution Blog is a series of reflections inspired by Suzi Lula’s book, The Motherhood Evolution. It is my hope and Suzi’s that mothers are inspired by the notion that motherhood can be a life-giving and abundant experience. Join me as I journey and reflect with A Motherhood Evolution Blog.

Chapter 10 - Going to the Mountaintop: Changing our perspective

Suzi agrees self-care can feel daunting. Sometimes it can feel too hard or too much. Or only just another thing on our to-do list. When self-care feels the most difficult, this is often the time we need it the most. Twelve weeks ago I took a job interstate.